An excerpt from my forthcoming book, Living From A Place of Authentic Love and Freedom, by Jamie Barone
“There was a time in my life, actually, most of my life, where I allowed myself to be a doormat. I allowed myself to be disrespected and mistreated. I would allow myself to be diminished and even excluded from things that I was a part of and were important to me without feeling that I could speak up for myself.
I was easily intimidated. I was fearful of conflict or approaching anything important to me, as the negative judgments and belittlement of my feelings from others would crush me. I always allowed others to take front row, shine in the spotlight, and exclude me, while I patiently hid away in the shadows nowhere to be seen. I felt invisible.
I’m positive this was born out of my upbringing from a very young age, one in which I was not allowed to speak up for myself, one in which I lived in fear of erratic punishment, of angering another, of abandonment and rejection. This is not to blame another, but rather to understand where I go to shed light of truth upon the lies that were instilled in me. This removes any victim mentality and turns it into empowerment. I have the power in me, the right, the worth, the value, to speak up for myself… to Lovingly and courageously speak up for myself. Yes.
And as I grow in awareness and remain open to this growth, I continue to find more and more opportunities which bring to me the very lessons I need, in order to strengthen that courage and lose that fear of speaking up. Yes, during these moments, they may feel difficult, but as I move through them, as I learn and grow, as I take action through the fear, through the insecurity, I began to feel more and more empowered… more and more of who I truly am. And I can feel the broken pieces of my soul begin to come together again.
It is okay to be powerful.
It is okay to express yourself.
It is okay to shine.
It is okay to be you.”